Friday, March 20, 2009

they always seems to go in threes....

so liam neeson's wife passed away yesterday. and on the 13th betsy blair (gene kelly's wife at some point, she just missed out on an academy award for a movie she did once) passed away from cancer, and about a week ago, an ex-wrestler was found dead in his home in tampa florida, making him the 4th ex-wrestler to do so in 2 years.

but i'm still keeping my ears open for any more deaths cause i'm not sure if the wrestler qualifies.

i mean, I'VE heard of him, but i don't know if he was well-known enough.

i guess we shall see in the next few weeks.......

Monday, March 16, 2009

in a reflective mood, and i haven't blogged yet this month...

it's sad when u see someone u haven't seen in ages, and they've let themselves go, in a REALLY bad way.

like, to the point where u look at them and think "what the hell went wrong with u??".

it's really sad cause they were once full of promise and a cheery, somewhat carefree person. and now they're basically a shadow of their former selves.

it makes me think back to all the fun times that were shared what feels like an eternity ago.

sometimes i wish time could be turned back. if i knew then what i knew now. i guess some things would be the same. but others would be heaps different.

if i COULD go back in time, would one phone conversation have stopped a friend from dying?
if i was a stronger person then, would i have had the strength to walk away when i wanted to, instead of when HE wanted to?
would i have ended up with someone different again? would i be living in a totally different place?
would my family situation have been any different? would i have had children by now?

i think, if i could retain the knowledge from now but go back in time, i would have walked away sooner. but i still wouldn't have moved back to gladstone as i was thinking.

and i KNOW i would have waited for him. because he is the best thing that's happened to me in a very long time. and even though he can be an arse, he's MY arse. and i love him. and i wouldn't change that for the world.